Today we are celebrating Naylah second birthday. I can't believe it's been two years already that my journey as a mother started.
That her journey as a fighter started. I would like to take you two years ago and remember her birth.
April 30th 2012. Typical day of work, and regular visit at the Obygyn to check on Naylah heart. Make sure she would hang there until end of May when it was her due date. The plan was ultrasound and a belt around my belly to check on her movements and heart . I had to press a button every time I would feel her move. I was there on my own. That day David couldn't come with me, and no one else was available. I wasn't really worried about it. It was just a routine. Same we had been having when we found out about her heart issues at my 20 weeks check up.
I was laying there, they were measuring her and giving an approximate weight for her. The ultrasound person seemed concerned. But didn't tell me anything. I continued admiring Naylah as I could see her on the screen. She even let me have a glance at her little face and I was already in LOVE. The ultrasound tech leaves the room and the doctors came in. She was concern that Naylah wasn't gaining weight. I was 37 weeks and she was about 5 lbs as they could give me an average. She said the weight was low and that I had to be admitted at the hospital next day so they could induce me and be ready for her surgery if it was needed. I wasn't ready. I thought I had an extra 3 weeks. Was suppose to work until the end of the week and have to weeks of me time and get everything ready for my baby. The doctor gave me some paperwork to take with me to the hospital and she said they would be waiting for us may first at 5 pm. I left there in tears, reality was coming sooner than I thought. I wasn't ready for what was to happen and what if she didn't make it, by being so small and fragile? I called David , he once again reassured me all would be fine. Called my mother who was suppose to be here and help me out one week before birth . She panicked, she wanted to be here sooner and did everything to change her plane ticket. Called eliza who drove to Austin next morning to welcome her god daughter and for me. Called everyone that I could think of that were thinking of us this whole pregnancy. Went back to work, finished my shift. took a long shower and told Naylah as I was holding my belly to make through it, because I needed her, we needed her. Just to hang there and be strong. Next day may 1st, Pack my stuff and hers, even tho I didn't know what to pack and all we would need. Pack David's stuff who was in finals that week. We hung out, hugged each other, made sure we had all the medical documents needed. It was so unknown what was gonna happen. We stop on our way to the hospital to get burgers. Then met with jasmine in front of the hospital who brought the most thoughtful gift . A hospital kit. With magazines, socks, candy, hand sanitizer , chips,
Checked in at 5. I remember walking in the hallway and telling David jasmine and eliza how glad I was that I didn't waddle. They all laugh, and told me I was waddling quite alright. They made me feel less scared. Getting there, changing clothes, monitoring the baby's heart. Me who was no where near dilated. Naylah wasn't ready yet. We stayed there. Everyone stayed there, David was going back and forth to find a quiet place to study. Would come back as soon as I needed him. Later on the girls left and It was just David and I, waiting for baby to come. I was so nervous. Next day , they broke my water, to start the whole process. All day nothing. Around 8 we opted for c-section. Was time for us to be strong for whatever was about to happen. To be ready to welcome our baby girl. We get in the operating room, a whole team was there, ready for anything. Cardiologists, nurses, my doctor, everything set up and ready for Naylah. Laying down on that table, feeling numb from waste down was so weird, David was holding my hand as he was recording the birth. As soon as they started moving my belly. I fell so sick , so nervous I just threw up. A few minutes later.
8:59 pm on May 2nd I hear for the first time the most beautiful cry on this planet. Naylah was born, and she cried. She wasn't blue, she didn't have a hard time breathing, she seemed just fine. The doctors introduce her to us quickly then make sure all was good.
We could just hear how happy they were while listening to her. The worst didn't happen, My baby heard me to be strong. I got to hold her once they were done. I cried. She was so little, so precious and David and I made her. She was my biggest accomplishment , I was so proud.
I touched her tiny face , looked at her, admired her for awhile then, They took her after a few minutes the NiCU to run extra tests. I couldn't go since I also needed to recover and be able to move from the c-section and numbing. David went with her, then came downstairs and told me how wonderful she was and how great she was doing. I couldn't wait to go up.
From that moment, my journey as a mother started, and I can not believe two years has passed since we first welcomed that miracle.
I look back, and the more I realize in that little 2 years of life, Naylah has gone through a lot more , than any of us ever will. Open heart surgery, feeding tube, tachycardia, hospitals stay, all tests done at hospital to understand her better, fighting her delays and achieve new goals every day without never losing her sassy smile. Her wonderful character. It's been two years. What a two years. They were days I really thought I wouldn't make it. There were days, I thought she deserved someone stronger. There were days, I wanted to give up because I couldn't figure out how to help her. But most days were joys, laughter, happy tears, moments of pride, goals achieved, and loving moments between mother and daughter. So many great moments that I could almost forget the hard days, it's been two years that I became the mother of the most amazing kid ever. Two years, she makes me a better person. Two years,I have the best company by my side. Two years,that I love being with her each and every second.
Happy birthday my love, happy birthday my miracle. Always remember that I will always be here for you. I wish you a wonderful birthday , surrounded by all the people you love, I wish you all the best you deserve it all. You are my greatest achievement, you are my biggest pride, you are my miracle, you are my life. Thank you for existing and Thank you for being YOU!
What a two years!